I don't think...

I'm supposed to have friends...i know how that sounds but it's true.

They either just stop talking to me or things just get in the way.

Whether it's my fault or their fault i don't know.

But just once i thought things were going to be different but then i knew it was bound to happen and it is again.

Of course this is being made out to be my fault. which it partly is.

"can you honestly say you have never questioned being friends with me. Not once."

if he says no he's lying. pretty much. means he has and im pretty sure i know when.

It can never be like it was before, why did i have to go and fuck it up!

I feel so stupid. I'm not mad at him, i'm mad at myself. I hate myself for what happened.

Don't tell me it's not my fault, it is.

I don't want to be a pain in the ass. I really don't.

I don't wanna cause you stress. Maybe i need to go away from you.

Why would you ask me how i messed up our friendship why would you make me say it!

I can't say it, i can't

This didn't help. i have a headache, my back hurts and i'm emotionally exhausted